more than words could ever express
how i want You more not less
Your love so sweet
that it sweeps me off my feet

Your arms that gives me security
in times when i'm in the midst of obscurity
i fall in love with You every morning
coz You are my everything

a grace beyond common sense
a love greater than the brightest radiance
the ultimate price You pay
on the cross You chose to stay

for a man as wretched as i
You would come to earth to die
now all my life i give to you
because there is no better way to say "i love You"

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a little poem for the greatest gift of all

my savior Jesus Christ

last sunday while i was in church..and listening to the sermon..sumthing came in my mind..they were words..and it was" i am goin to write ur story from now..forget all thw sins u've done..right now, let's start a new page"..at that moment i felt a huge weight lifted off me..i realised that God forgives and forget as quickly as children does..and that day, God's grace couldnt surprise me more..=)..so guys..if any one of you are feeling guilt over the things u've done..God knows you cant change what u've already done..but God is inviting you to write a new page with Him today..let the past be the past and dun let ur future be ur past..God is waiting for you to flip the page so He can write a new chapter..take some time now to pray..and tell God that you want to start a new chapter as well..=)

I have a testimony to sharee!!hehee..it's about my grand pa..while i was in indo..my gramps was hospitalised because of his extremely high sugar level( 500+, the machine can't read above 500).. and there was a huge wart which needs to be operated as well..then not soon after he was discharged from the hospital, he started having seizures..so we brought him back to the hospital.. he didn't get better there though..he continued to have temporal seizures for 3 days..and then my aunt asked him whether he wanted to receive Christ and be baptised..and my gramps said yes!!!..after praying for my gramps for like 3 years..he finally got saved!!..God didn't stop there..after my gramps got baptised, he stopped having seizures!!..and on top of that he can walk!!!..ain't God just the coolest..hehehe..i hope this can be an encouragement for those who is still praying for their family to be saved..don't give up guysss...

heyyy..dah lama banget gak post apa2..hauhauha..anywayyss..i just came back from indoo..when i was in indo i learnt about what it means to have a childlike heart..it's soo cooll..coz i realised then that i am not in charge of my life..so there's pretty much nothing i need to worry about..then there's this other thing..i realised that adults give up easier when they fail than children, contoh dhe yah..when adults fail to do sumthing and consequently embarass themselves in public..they gave up and stop trying..whereas children can fall naked in the middle of the road and yet they never stop trying to learn how to walk..this kinda set me thinkin what happen between childhood simplicity and adult conservativeness..another thing..children forgives really quickly..kalo orang dewasa..bahh!!skali berantem bisa musuhan seumur idup..bener kan? dmana2 kalo kita liat anak kecil berantem..paling lama 3 jm, mreka dah baekan lagi and bukan cuma maafin..mreka bisa langsung lupain..mreka gak mgkn inget knapa mreka berantem..kalo adults bisa dendem ampe dbawa k kubur..terakhir yang gue dapet itu..anak kecil lebih gampang merasakan kbahagiaan..mreka lebih gampang puas dbandingkan orang dewasa yang sudah overwhelmed by their greed and ambitions..g merasa ketantang geto..
apakah kita bisa memiliki hati yang seperti anak kecil lagi..soalnya kan Tuhan ndiri yang bilang.. unless we become like little children, we will never see the kingdom of heaven..

yooo..jus got back from mission trip..my gosh it was wayyy cooll..lemme tell u guys about it..we went from batam to tanjung pinang then batu aji then gaung then tembilahan..from all these places i learnt different lessons..isaiah 2:22 really hits me in the face mann..anyway..i learnt that this walk with God is like a tree..it can be tall or short..but whats important is the fruit it bears..sumtimes we focus too much on our ministries that we became a tall dry tree..i learnt how to be more like Christ..what it means to love everyone..and what it means to be thirsty and desperate for God..and the weird thing is..i learnt what love really is..and how i can practice it in my life..hehehehe..oke oke..time for the cerita d mission trip..
ko agusss is sooooo gemesin abiesss..pengen dbejek ama irene and me,,wakakaka..ohn iyaa..d desa, the stars are sooo coolll..and i saw a shooting star..wakakakaka..and in gaung..mann its so miraculous..its a village in the middle of the forest geto..with only 6 buildings..and there was 60 people in the church..and waktu altar call..EVERYONE responded..they ALL got on their knees and pray..my goodness..trus waktu d batu aji..i got to know lots of little children who are VERY thirsty for God..mreka tuh bener2 mau tau tentang Tuhan..mreka tuh uda siap relain idup mreka buat Tuhan..padahal mreka tuh gak punya banyak..mreka gak kaya, skolah juga gak gitu bagus, rumah juga agak jelek..tapi mreka seneng banget waktu kenal Tuhan..gue malu banget liat mreka..second day d tembilahan..irene jadi worship leader..and before the service robert suggested to pray for wvery seat..and the power of prayer was sooo great that people began to open up their hearts to the sermon..unlike the first day in tembilahan where people are sooo closed..and they expect nothing..everything is just so kerenn..hehehe..d gaung juga ada sumthing very unique..the river is the color of coke and iodine..item2 geto..parah mann..and waktu gue naik speedboat yang kecil untuk k desanya..gue ketelen air sungai itu..ARGHHH..it was sour..parah..wakakaka..but in this mission trip i truly learnt the power of a sincere heart, unity, prayer, submission and humility..it's soo cooooll..i wanna go againnn..hehehe..okay then sampe sini aja dulu..heuhe..catcha guys later..

yooooooooooo..wuzzup peopless..heuhe..mann..i'll be goin back in like 5 dayssss..hiks hiks..but nevermind..i'll be back..i'll be back..=P..yesterday was a really interestin day..after that discipleship class i had on sunday, i decided that i'm gonna have more control over what i say..and i DID IT!!woooooooooott..i actually survived a day without being nyolott!!..hahaa..that was a HUGE achievement for me u knoww..and the cool thing is that i managed to say less useless things..wakkaka..i never knew i can actually do that..oh well..hmm..currently i'm really into drawin, so i spend most of my free time learnin how to draw(on my own sadly)..but it's fun it's so fun lookin for different styles of drawin from the net and learning each one..from anime to shading to human sketching..the challenge is......i only have one pencil to do all these..so shading is sooooo much harder using only a 2B pencil..hahaha..

okay okay lets drop that subject..oh right..when i was working..there's this guy who slacks like 4 hours out of the 5 hours he works..i was like sooo annoyed..then this verse came up to me..Phil 2:14 which goes like this"Do everything without complaining or arguing"..soo i survived through the day without complaining or arguing with that person and i actually enjoyed work moreee..huahuahuahauaha..good one God!!..ehhehe..